PLEASE DON'T

Gessel A., Arizona 
Contact:  gesselaria@gmail.com

Please, don't make me fall in love with you.
I will try to push you away, but I will only want you more, the more attention you show me.
I will fall in love with the way you laugh at the silly things your friends say. Or the way you giggle when I make a silly face.
I will fall in love with those emerald green with brown specks eyes of yours. The way they light up as you talk about your passions or goals in life. The way I get lost in them as you stare back into mine.
I will fall in love with the way your fingers feel so right intertwined with mine. And the way you always rub your thumb in a circle in the same area of my hand.
I will notice the little movements you do like the constant tapping of your feet. Or the way you're always making some sort of beat.
I will spoil you with love and affection, but then feel too clingy, and notice the way you smile at me with that goofy, crooked smile of yours and kiss my forehead to reassure me that it's okay.
I will fall in love with the simple things like holding the door open no matter where we are. Or the way you mindlessly play with my hair. Or how you mindlessly rub my back.
I will love the way you always support me, but make sure that I don't make a stupid decision. The way you're my best friend and I can completely be myself around you.
I will fall in love with all of your flaws. How stubborn or hotheaded you can be. How you don't always look your best, but in my eyes you are the most beautiful person in the world, regardless of what you look like.
I will fall in love with your spontaneous moments. The random attack of hugs and kisses you make. The way that not every moment has to be captured on camera.
I will fall in love with your gentlemanly manners. The way you respect me and what I'm comfortable with. The way you will never pressure me into doing anything I don't want to do.
I will spoil the life out of you with surprises and little reminders in replacement of constantly saying "I love you." I will give you my all and only ask for your love in return.
I will fall in love with the bags under your eyes when you haven't had enough sleep. The crease in the corner of your eyes that only show up when you're laughing hysterically.
I will fall in love with your shy moments because you just did something embarrassing and how red your cheeks get and the way you try to cover your face up afterwards.
I will write you cute little love letters and watch the way you react as you read them. I will love the way you show me off to the world and tell everyone, "that's my girl."
I will love those silent moments that are comforting just being in each other's company.
I will fall in love with the way you wrinkle your nose when you make a silly face.
I will fall in love with those philosophical conversations at 4 am, laying on the hood of your car. I will notice how you ramble on and on about your views of life and the universe.
I will fall in love with the way your jaw tenses and you clench your first as you are furious. Or the pain in your face as you try bench 10 more pounds.
I will love the way you wrap your arms around my waist and bury your head in the crook of my neck as you give me soft kisses.
I will play with your luscious hair, constantly running my fingers through it as you lay in my lap and look up at me.
You will mean everything to me and more. I may be as handful but I promise you, I will show you the universe.
I beg you though, if you do not love me, please don't make me fall in love with you. I will get through it, but it'll be dreadful and I will cry my heart out.
I will write out millions of things and then throw them away because I feel like they're not good enough.
I will want to text you all day since you're constantly running in my mind. I will start typing out a message to you, then delete it because I know you do not love me.
I will remember all of our good and bad times. I will remember the way you liked your coffee in the morning. Or the way your breath always smelled minty because you hated having a bad breath.